Earth Shaking, Doors Opening, & Breaking Free! Acts16:26


"Friends, Healing, Cancer, Love, Hope" (Whats going on with me) Thank God for peace of mind and great friends.

  1. Trust
  2. Peace
  3. Friends
  4. Dont wait until its to late

Many things have taken place that I could add in this "note" but if I did, I'm sure it would be way to long. No one would read it, and I felt inspired to write this in hopes for it to touch someones life. I have a few main points that I want to touch on. As I stated above the first one is trust. When you put your full trust in HIM, peace automatically comes into your life. If you are struggling with trusting HIM, then I suggest praying for your eyes to be open and your mind to be sound and right. As 2Timothy 1:7 says "For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a SOUND mind." When you dont understand what is going on always remember this, Proverbs 3:5 "Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding."

I knows what it is like having friends in your life who do you wrong. As Job put it in Job 16:20 "My friends scorn me: but mine eye poureth out tears unto God." But DONT ever stop praying for those friends.. Look at what happened with Job when he prayed for the friends who scorned him, Job 42:10 "And the LORD turned the captivity of Job, when he prayed for his friends: also the LORD gave Job twice as much as he had before." BUT THANK GOD FOR THOSE FEW FRIENDS WHO LOVE AND TRULY CARE FOR YOU.

I just kept putting it off.... I didn't think nothing much of it.. I had my own reason to why I was putting it off. Making excuses thinking it wasn't that important. Also after I was told I had an abnormal Pap test and I went in to have my first biopsy done, the Dr was not very gentle. So, I was a little scarred by that. No one really explained to me the importance of what was even taking place or WHY it was SOOOO important to be checked again in 6months. So, after I had my first biopsy in July of 2010(which he didnt even really get a "right" biopsy because it was so painful for me, so he didnt get a sample) they said I was "OK" but had to come back in 6months to be checked again.

I made an appointment for my follow up pap test back somewhere around February 2011 and I cancelled the appointment because I knew it was going to be another guy Dr checking me. So, I put it off. BUT THANK GOD FOR GREAT FRIENDS.... :-) My friend was driving one day and heard on the radio about the Papathon, she sent me a text right away telling me about their free testing. The website is its A website dedicated to the education and awareness of cancer and women's health. Thank God for great programs like this. I called and made an appointment May 11th 2011 to get my Free Pap Test done... And Thank God it was a lady Dr who now has become my Dr...

I got a call from the Dr very concerned and wanted me to get papers turned into her so that she could become my Dr.. So I did. I went to go visit with her and then she scheduled me for my biopsy because my pap test came back abnormal. Was scheduled July 20th 2011 for the biopsy... I took 4 ibuprofen and she also had me take a valium before the procedure. (I can't handle pain) ... Well, she's for sure a good Dr cause even through my crying, and saying LOUDLY, "oh Jesus help me" over and over, she was able to get 2 really good biopsy's on my cervix cut off.

Pretty painful stuff. Things that you really would like to avoid and not have to go through. Life is life and sometime we just have to go through things in life. That Saturday after the biopsy I woke up and blocked out... I guess my body just cant handle such things and it went into shock... I stopped breathing but Thank God for his love, grace, and mercy... After my mom saw me blocked out on the stairs, she blew into my mouth and I came back... But it was God giving me breath back. I give HIM all the glory for that.

I had my check up appointment on July 28th 2011. Dr diagnosed me with cervical cancer but that it is caught at the beginning of the stage. She said its good and that I need to get on medicaid right away because I need to have surgery. She said because she knows that I have NO pain tolerance that I will be admitted to the hospital, sedated, and the surgery done that way. She is hoping to get me in SOON to see a cancer specialist(I think she said Dr Rodriguez) who deals with things like this and will know exactly what needs to be done.

My thoughts after I heard the diagnoses

  • Okay, God's in control, I trust whatever takes place.
  • Maybe God is allowing this to happen to clean me out.. To allow me to feel clean and new.
  • Maybe God wants me to witness to a nurse or a Dr
  • Oh, I remember back in Feb of 2010 when that Demon came in my room and told me that he was going to put me up in the hospital and that I was never going to reach anyone again. (And dont worry, when he said that to me, I told him the truth of who he was, A LIAR, and to go back to hell where he belonged, and that even if he put me up in the hospital I would still be reaching the nurses or Dr's and he left and hasnt bothered me anymore)
  • Life is life, things happen (Cares of this life)
  • HE IS the potter and I am the clay. (Make me, mold me, change me)
  • At church Sunday July 31st, during worship time, Brother Spite asked people to come up to the front who need a healing... I was hesitant to go. Why? Cause the thought of me being healed, meaning, healed before my surgery never crossed my mind. I went up there, prayed, and the thought came to me. Hmmm, God CAN DO ALL THINGS, If HE wants me to be healed before my surgery, and the Dr's find nothing in me when they do the surgery, and I tell them, YOU have YOUR report, BUT I BELIEVE THE REPORT OF THE LORD... Healed!!

I'm here to encourage any woman who has not had a pap test done in the last year to go get it done. Thank God for great friends who actually help and care. Alot of times when you go through "storms" in this life, when your going through them, you dont have the answers to why its happening. Sometimes you may never know why certain things take place.

Through ANYTHING in this life you can have peace of mind. Isaiah 26:3-4 "Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee. Trust ye in the LORD for ever." Try to think positive through your situation. Philippians 4:8-9 "Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you."

I dont know all that will take place but one thing I do know is that I TRUST the ONE who has control over all situations. This is my prayer, "Lord YOU ARE able to do ALL things, heal me and blow those Dr's minds or if YOU want me to go through this surgery, pain, recovery for a reason.. let it be.. But this one thing I do ask, is that You place me in the hands of a great Dr who will get all this bad stuff out of me so I can be all clean and new, to have no complications with the surgery, and heal completely in Jesus Name"

Now its a time for waiting and see what happens next :-)

Isaiah 40:31 But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

A wonderful song to help you

through the trials in your life.

We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering

All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops?
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near?

What if trials of this life
Are Your mercies in disguise?

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough

And all the while You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near?

And what if trials of this life
Are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us, when darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
* It's not our home *

Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears?
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near?

What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst
This world can’t satisfy?

And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise?


A beautiful song... When you ask God to use you, you are giving yourself away. You are not your own anymore. You are His. HE KNOWS what is best for you.

"Trading My Sorrows" 0min-4:50min... "I give myself away" 5:20min-end.. at 20min-41min Bro Rutledge speaking/preaching, Press through, Dont give up, there is Victory, Daniel 10:1-12.. Lord I need you, God knows right were you are, He knows your heart desire.. in your trial, in your sorrow, in your weakness, YOU JUST KEEP HANGING ON...

I give myself away
I give myself away
So You can use me
I give myself away
I give myself away
So You can use me

Verse 1:
Here I am
Here I stand
Lord, my life is in your hands
Lord, Im longing to see
Your desires revealed in me
I give myself away

Verse 2:
Take my heart
Take my life
As a living sacrifice
All my dreams all my plans
Lord I place them in your hands

My life is not my own
To you I belong
I give myself, I give myself to you